fucken idiots on facebook...

fuck it i'm back... and yeah... i joined facebook... i know i said i'd never do it... but oh well... fuck it...

well... i'm gonna talk about these fucken dumb people in a group that i joined... i can't believe how much retardedness there is on my timeline... HAHAHA... and spelling errors... shit... it's fucken nuts... well... i can't keep talking shit because most of the people that are on my timeline are my family members... LOL... but it's okay because they mostly are all in mexico... well... this isn't to talk about my family... i want to talk shit about what people post on the timeline...

okay... first of all... i'm fucken tired of people putting up videos of the wars in gaza... this one guy... okay, i know he goes to downtown LA and takes pictures of all of the protesting and such... that's cool.. but fuck... 8 pictures of the same person holding up a sign in different angles..? wtf...? that's not going to make me read the sign 8 times... that's gonna annoy the fuck out of me... jeez... one picture and move on... like the rest of the world... and why even put that picture up... you aren't friends with president Obama... HAHAHAljdkdl;sjfkasjfjks;afd... do you really think you're going to make a difference showing your friends pictures of a protest... fuh-ken-guy... NOTHING... you aren't making any sort of difference... you aren't some comic book super hero that post shit on face book... we don't care that you care... i don't care if that stupid shit makes you cry... i don't care if you want to stop the war or whatever... but you're only one guy... you want to make a difference... go feed the homeless or donate food to a bank... fuck you gaza posting whore...

so i joined a group to buy shit... one is a pet kind of thing... like people make ads to sell dogs and other animals... FUCK... i hate this shit... every day i get into some sort of fight with people... because they're so fucken stupid... let me bring in some stuff that went down today... this is gonna be fun... this chick named daisy garcia (had to be a garcia) made this ad...



Just bought him but can't keep him
$250 OBO
-these puppies go for more than $400

*hes a Mal-Shi (maltese with shih Tzu)
*He's been dewormed
*has first set of shots
*he's 2 months



so i ask, do people honestly pay that much for mix...? she said yes look, and put a picture of some going for and sold for 600 dollars... holy fuck... hold on, it gets better... lol... i say... "that's crazy... that's like selling an F1 mutt..." she said, "Ha these are expensive dogs"... wtf... she didn't read what i said...? i then answered... "that's not what i'm saying... i'm talking about the irony... oh well... good luck..." then some other dumb broad comes in and throws in her two stupid cents... her name is Chikita Ckay and she said "Yup they r that expensive I have one myself n sold her puppies $400 boy girls $450" so then i asked this other chick... "how did you find another one of the same to breed it with...? are they a popular so called breed...?" oh fuck, looks like she deleted some post... dumb chick... okay, i remember what she said... she then said... that she bred hers and sold them for 400 bucks... i asked... "what did you breed them with...? did you find another one not related to your dog...??" she answered... "no i found a lady with a nice shit zu and i bred her with him" so then i got mad... i had to bust out with science... " so, they were only quarter maltese... not mai shi or whatever..." then they started talking among themselves saying that she should sell them at the beach.. hahahah...

then the OG girl says, "see, she knows they are expensive" so i had my closing statement... i said... "yeah, i see that people spend money, but they're cross breeds... and not even a breed yet... where are you going to find a mate for it..? if only a hand full of people are going to be making that mix... you guys know that all of the modern breeds of dogs are only a 100 years old...? most of them are all full of genetic mistakes and disease prone... and if you get one of these, breed it with a shit zu, that doesn't make them 100% mai-shi... that's doing it ass backwards..." right...? am i right...? then i said... "young people these days... .all of the older/wiser people that have pure breeds will stay away from them... go to a beach with young hip people like venice... LOL.." hahahah... that made me laugh... then that stupid daisy garcia told me this... "Gumbii not to be rude but if youre not interested what do you care" oh hells no little girl... you don't ask me what do i care... fuck you you stupid dumb overpaying for dog bitch... i said this... "i'm just curious... i'm a pro at genetics and a huge animal enthusiast... i just find it oxymoron for people to sway to these F1 breeds... but i might be wrong... you people are just a small crowd... what if they are trying to standardize them and i don't know they are... that's what i'm trying to understand... sorry if i came out rude... i said good luck and told you where you might sell the dogs... jeez.... but whatever... you didn't understand anything i said right now... just know that you guys are incredibly ignorant to pay more than 50 dollars for them mutts... just because they're F1 (first generation) mutts, doesn't make them a real breed... you don't know shit about genetics and nether do these people breeding them and taking your hard earned money from you helmet wearing nincompoops... have fun with your cute furry piece of shit dogs..." then i unsubscribed from that thread... now looking back, they didn't say anything else about me... good... they know best...

oh snap, then there was this girl... she made a post in the same group asking for help... she got a pitbull puppy, and it got parvo... the vet was charging her 360 for treatment... first i said... just give him pedialyte, water, and some antibiotic shots and she'll be fine... all kinds of people start saying the same shit... a lot of smart people... but then she's like... i don't know how to give it pedialyte... fuck... that shit pissed me off... how do you not know how to give a liquid to a fucken puppy... you just give it to them to drink... shit taste like bubble gum... the dog is going to pound that shit and love it... it's gonna want to snort that shit straight to the fucken brain... how do you now know how to give your dog pedialyte... you fucken retard... so then i got mad... i told her the truth... i put something like... if you can't afford the vet bills, then you shouldn't have a dog... right...? so she got all mad... something about, i can afford them, but i don't have the money right now... hahaha... fucken retarded answer... then i told her that responsible pet owners should be responsible for all vet bills and everything else the dog needs... you should just give it away.... i got a ton of likes on that comment... because it's true... poor dog... it's not it's fault that dumb chick got that dog... now it's going to die... fuck that... 360 is a lot of money... 

let me tell you something that i do like about facebook... is that i get to see my cousins that i never thought i would hear from again... they all sent me messages, well wishes and i love you's... that made me feel great... one day i will be able to go visit them... i don't know why i took so long to join face book... i guess i didn't want any connection with my family because i was angry... after my mother died, we stopped getting attention from a lot of cousins and aunts... now that my sister died, i felt the same... but the truth is that my real family, the ones i care about... well, i closed them out of my life with the bad ones... i hate 75% of my family... i honestly do... a lot of them are vampires and just plain assholes... so i'm cool not talking to a lot of them... but there's a quarter that's out there... that i love to see their pictures... i love to see where they are going, who they are hanging out with... i love seeing their faces... they showed me so much love and nothing else... i need to show them love back... i will stay in touch with them and eventually go spend time with them... my family needs to know my kids and husband... maybe next summer... who knows... but eventually we will see where my mother is buried, and where half of my lineage started... 

thanks for reading...  

i need pills...

yeah, i said i was gonna post like twice a week at least... but i got busy... sue me... there were some amazing video game tournaments on twitch tv that i just had to watch... LOL... today i'm gonna be discussing my recent hobbies and happiness... so take a seat...

i have been talking to a therapist... not like, by appointments, but like a friend... he's helping me out until i find a real good therapist i can go and fix my brain in... he tells me that i'm depressed... LOL... i figured... feels like my kids are growing up, and i can't keep up... that's what's really fucking me up right now... but i need to get over it... this past week has been me trying to get over my "rut" and find a center where i can be a peace... right now i don't care about happiness... i get enough of that with my kids... :)

i know i sound angry... a lot of people always tell me that when they read my blog and send me hate mail... btw, i love the hate mail... LOL... makes me love blogging more... it feels weird thinking that i'm writing all of this crap up and no one is reading it... but you do read it, and give me your feedback... that's bomb... love it... makes me feel like it is alive and a working organism... i feed it letters, it gives me back hate mail... HAHAHA... anyways... i'm not angry... i don't have anger inside... i just love to argue and get my point across... plus, when i have a point that doesn't sound angry, it's just boring... why would i even blog about that...? like if i'm going to write about the awesome shoes i got in the mall the other day... who wants to read that garbage..? meow......

anyways... shrink says that i try to get happy by spending money... well, most of the depressed americans do that... that's why you see so many emo's in the malls and shit... i do it too... but i skip the makeup and razor blade scars... i think that's why i was on a comic book rampage... the trips to frank and son's made me happy... until i got home... then it was this huge depressing hole called my living room... my sister was slowly deteriorating, i was missing one kid, going to court once a month, getting visits by social workers, parenting classes, all of that was just fucking me up... then my sister's death... fuck... after she passed, i calmed down on the buying stuff... well, except for comics because they are bad ass... but on other stuff... i need to find happiness in what's real, and skip the euphoric moments like buying stupid shit...

this weekend i took a step further on my other hobby... yeah, that's right... bmx bikes... LOL... i went to what might have been the biggest BMX bike show/gathering/bbq in the world... and it was pretty WACK... HAHAHAHfjsal;kdjfkal;jfd;... it was cool seeing some rare ass bikes... just pissed me off that there were so many i wanted, and that i will never have or afford to build... HAHAHA... but, i picked up my dream bike without even knowing it... well, it's not a bike yet... i picked up a 1981 team mongoose motomag frame... just the frame... and i know it's old... it's 11 months older than me... LOL... fucken bike is 32 years old... it was made in january 1981... but it's in super good shape... anyways... that did make me happy... when i look at it, i crack a smile... yeah, that's how much i like it... even thought right now it's sitting inside a 5 gallon bucket in the living room corner... LOL... but the challenge, time and effort is what i can't wait for... right now i'm looking for a fork for it... once found, the build really starts...

okay... i know that was boring, but shit, i'm really happy about that bike build... another thing that i did was buy a huge piece of wood so i can make shit out of it... this is crucial for me right now... i'm going to make some shelves for the living room... well, one is going to be a bike rack... LOL... but the other a shelf where i can put my sister's ashes, pictures and other stuff like my dog buddha's leather studded collar... this is my motivation to get up, clean, paint and fix up my living room... maybe then i'll get out of this rut that i have going on right now... everything reminds me of my sister, or sad/dark time... even my couches... i hate everything... i need everything new again... just that money is cock blocking... i'm waiting on my taxes still... of course, i have plans for my taxes if i ever get it... LOL... first thing is a glock g22... yeah, i need a gun... then it's all going for my living room and kids rooms... i got my boys their bed and dresser, but they still need new paint and other furniture... maybe not paint... it's too late for that... i can't pull out that gigantic bed now... i'm assed out...

anyways... yesterday was bomb... i got to use my hands and build something epic... i busted out with my pro skillsaw with a fresh new blade, jigsaw with a fresh new blade, drill, and my staining brushes... i haven't built anything since i made all of my chicken coops... the gigantic wind chimes don't count since i didn't cut wood... it was just pipes and chains... i had a ton of fun and it was cool making it while my kids ran around in the front yard... now i know why my dad would always be in the back yard building shit... my dad was my age when i was born... fuck... but working with my hands and seeing the outcome made my happy... as long as i don't sit down in front of the laptop, or tv... i'm going to be alright... i hope...

fuck, i have so much shit to do... i just don't want to do it... i've been blaming it on the weather for months, but it's the storms inside my head that are keeping me from moving forward... OMG i'm gonna tweet that... there... well, i guess i should start throwing away shit and moving all of my junk to the room in the back... just for a while... until i'm done with my living room then the bikes, comic book boxes, books, guitars and other crap come back... this is a man's house anyways... right...? LOL...

good night people... i might blog tonight if i get bored... let you know what's up...