So… I'm sitting in the court waiting room here in children's court… I think in the city of el monte… not sure… yeah, I just asked nena… el monte… I'm not going to get into detail with the case and such, but I really just need to vent a little… so bare with me…
First of all… I'm a little pissed because while waiting in the mediation office, I started coloring an awesome picture of the shredder in a ninja turtle coloring book… I just got done doing his face and a bit of his chest when they called us in… man… do you know how much I hate when that happens..? I'm totally pissed just because of that… yeah, I know, but srsly… WTF is up with that..??¿ what if some other jack ass kid comes in and fucks up what I started…? Or what it someone else finishes it and signs it on the bottom even though I started that piece of art… OMG I SHOULD'VE SIGNED THE BOTTOM!!!!!... oh well… now here I am writing about it… the page in the book I never got to finish…
Well, mediation was kind of cool… only because the lady told us that there is a huge chance that the judge will just look at the paper work and dismiss it… that felt great… but after looking at all of the charges that the stupid social workers put on for us… it really doesn't look good… fuck.. I don't understand how they totally fucked us over like this… we aren't bad parents… andre has been going to school since he was two years old… the kids are doing so great… all going to school and learning a shitload… we're helping them with their homework, and getting involved with the school as much as possible… I don't understand this shit… social workers are evil and total retards… I hate them now…
Yesterday I had to see the biatch social worker for an interview before the court date… man, I really want to finish coloring that page… so in the interview, she asked me a couple of questions and I answered they… we talked about how the kids are doing… I explained to them how I felt about the ridilin medication they prescribed matthew and why I didn't want to give it to him… but they don't care… all they care about are the numbers and I really don't know what else… they see the kids all happy and shit… fed and growing… but yet, they still find the smallest detail to incriminate us and take our time here with court dates…
I hate this… I should've been at the gym right now… but right now, I'm sitting on this hard wooden coffee table box, and surrounded by a mix of innocent people like us and real life child abusers… the ambience here is tiresome, overwhelming, and sad… every single case is a bad case… even when we were first trying to adopt the kids in this same exact court room, it was a sad case… we had a sister that kept popping out children that well… just didn't care about them enough to stop her way of life… yesterday while in the interview I almost broke down in tears because of that… I haven't seen my sister coyo in a couple of months… and talking about her when she was at her lowest reminded me on how weak we are as humans… I couldn't help her… I just sat there and watch her drown and die slowly in a white river of drugs…
I'm gonna switch it up a bit… I want to talk about yesterday a bit more…. I had a terrible day yesterday… the morning was cold, I didn't go to the gym, and I felt like I was getting the flu… you know, when your body aches, head hurts, have hot breath, and a fever… yeah, that was me… even after taking an ibuprofen I still felt like caca… the day turned a bit when we went to the gym and I won a couple of games against jose and macoy… even some one on one games… so I did pretty well… but when I got home, I took my laptop and went to my room… I don't normally do that, but it's that desiree stayed the night and I didn't want to make noise in the living room… after a while of talking shit to a mod on BYC, I logged into this one website where I met this one dude…
Okay… let me switch it up a bit again… LOL… ii met this kid online… he was a nerdy kid, all weird and shit… his profile didn't say much, but I hit him up anyways… I got his number somehow, and we talked for a bit… I kept asking him out, but he said he was sick… then out of nowhere, he said yes… so I took him to frank and sons… yeah I know… totally geeky and nerdous first date amirite…? LOL… well, he is a bigger nerd than I am, so I thought it was fitting… so… we ended up having a cliché type date… you know… restaurant, guitar center, park… LOL… I had a great time, and he said he was too… we talked for a long time after that… regularly… he told me all kinds of stuff… like, how he enjoys our conversations and well, everything I would want to hear really… then out of nowhere… he just stopped all communication with me… no emails, text, calls, messages nothing… I text him one last time inviting him over for the fourth of july and I thought to myself… that's it… if he doesn't respond or anything, oh well… fuck it… thug lyfe…
And that was it… never heard from or thought about him ever again… I wasn't heart broken, but it did really suck… I even told my family about him because, well I thought he was going to end up kicking it at my house or something… but I guess he had other plans… whatever they were, oh well… there are so many maybes that I can type up, but to be honest, I really don't care… I'm over it… oh yeah… I almost forgot what else happened around that time… there was this dude that I used to hook up with… yeah I know, I'm a whore… who cares… LOL… anyways, this guy would come over all the time, and I would ask him out every time he would come over… we had so much in common… liked the same shit, had the same sense of humor and taste in music… I really liked this kid… more than the nerd… J lol… anyways, I would always ask him out, and he said that he couldn't because of work and his family… closet case maybe..? whatever, that's really understandable… I know it's hard to be gay… so after the nerd stopped talking to me, I hit him up… I text him like… hey remember me… or something… he was like… OMGHI2U… so then I asked him out… yeah, I don't like asking shit like that over text, but whatever… guess what he told me… he said that he couldn't because he was in a relationship… fuck… that was it… after that move right there, I was kind of a wreck…
That day was the first time I have ever felt alone and un wanted… i have never in my life felt that way… it sucked… even when I went to the gym, I felt lost… my heart wasn't broken or anything… I just felt like shit… I really had no one to talk to about it either… well, I told jose, but what advice does he have to offer to me…? LOL… seriously… he's a good listener, but not someone I'd go for advice or wisdom… that's usually my job… sigh… I don't understand … not like I was in love with those guys… just never been rejected like that before… total shut down… well, after that I decided to turn my life around…
So let's go back to yesterday… LOL… so I'm sitting there in a room with this social worker that is a total biatch… I hate her… when she came to our house all she did was talk shit about the rug and dirty wall… LOL… my house is not a mess, but it's also not filthy… and the rug is brand new… brand spanking new… hundred something dollar throw rug… that bitch was straight out tripping that day… and I told her that yesterday too… fuck her… I just let her have it… I'm not the type of person to get punked by some twat that thinks she has a bit of power… I'm a lot smarter than her, and have years of education on my back… not like her… wtf do you need to do to become a social worker…???¿ apply…? Yeah, that's totally not enough to be in charge of all kinds of kids… fuck her… fuck those people… and I let her know what I thought about her yesterday too… shiet… she probably hates me now… but oh well… now she knows who the hell she's messing with…
I bet she didn't even have kids… I wonder if she does if they have ninja turtle coloring books… hmmmmm…
I really don't know what else to write about… I have no internet here… at least I'm not the only dude with a laptop… well, some attorneys have laptops… the awesome thing is that my laptop is way better than theirs… LOL… looks like they're typing into game boy pockets… all tiny and shit… I feel like asking one if that's the new black berry fail… ha… but there is a man across the room that is working with his apple laptop… I really don't know if his is better than mines… I doubt it, but with a mac, you never know… all I know is that his mouse pad doesn't have a right click… that's fucken dumb… apple people… are fucken dumb… why would you want a mouse with no right click… that's like something else you cannot do… there's a random white dude sitting across from me sitting on the floor… he's sitting down spread eagle for some reason… I'm gonna ask him if he's asking me out to lunch… LOL… j/k… he has his kids sitting next to him… his 12 year old daughter is crocheting… fuck… how boring is that dude… whatever… you're here for some reason mister… I bet you sit like that in front of your kids naked you sick fuck… CLOSE YOUR LEGS!!!...
You don't know how bad I want to go home… nena is sitting next to me and she's falling asleep… man, that is something else that worries me… she is so unhealthy right now… and she doesn't listen… she got a pacemaker put in earlier this year… she is just getting worse and worse… I don't know what to do… the other day I took her to the store with me, and she was panting, getting tired and breathing heavily… I couldn't watch her… I almost broke down in tears… she is also dying and I'm trying my hardest with her… I had her on a great strict diet, but her friends still feed her bullshit… I tell her that they aren't her friends if they aren't helping her towards her goal… but she just ignores it… I have told her and made her watch all kinds of stuff about it… man… I don't want to give up, but if she isn't helping herself, then that means she gave up a long time ago…
That day at the store as I drove her home, I told her… I told her that when I look at her suffer, I feel like crying… she's my sister… I don't like seeing her just waste away like this… we used to go all over the place before and now we can't even go to the market because she just gets too tired too fast… every doctor she has had tells her the same thing… hopefully she realizes what she is doing wrong before it gets worst… well, it's already very bad… who the hell gets a pacemaker put in at the age of forty…? Jebus Christ… what am I going to do now…? I guess I'm doing all I can… I just hope I don't fail…
Being an adult totally sucks… everything was a lot easier when I was a kid… I know everyone says that too… I do so much shit in one day… so many responsibilities… let me break down a typical morning for gumbii… I get up at 7am, shower, at 7.45 I take matthew and andre to school… I get home change and go to the gym with jose… the spin class starts at 9.15 and is an hour long… after that I go home, chill for like 10 minutes then go pick up andre at 11.30… then I rush home to take ariana to a different school at 12.05… I can't be late taking her either… if I get three tardies or whatever they will kick her out of school… wack… so then I get home, feed all the chickens, the dog, the birds clean a bit, and at 2.10 I have to go pick up matthew at the school across town… fuck… then go home feed kids feed myself then at 3.45 I go back to downey to pick up ariana… fuck… I can't do shit all morning until after 4pm… by then I don't want to do shit… I'm tired and worn out…
I really need to get a job… I don't want to be driving the kids all over the place because I'm taking exercise out of nena's day… right…? That's something that she should be doing… she should be the exhausted one not me… well, I'm not trying to say that I don't want to pick them up… but that she really does nothing all day… and driving the kids around will help her out somehow… but yeah I need a job… this chicken hobby has turned into a huge mission… LOL… I'm gonna call up some places I applied to tomorrow… I think it's too late right now… it's like… 11am right now… yeah… I've been here for 3 hours already… every time we come we usually leave at 2pm or so… life fucken sucks… oh shit… some little girls just came in with food and raspados… LOL… I can't eat that shit… I'm on a strict diet remember…
Fuck this, I'm gonna sit on the floor now… now I have to get up… great… the mediation lady just told us that we really can't do squat in fighting this case… I knew it… oh well, I tried… so now I have to wait to see what the judge will say… wack… but whatever… what can I do…? I'm just getting punked and bitched around by the system… even the mediation lady said the same shit… all this is un necessary and a huge waste of time…
Well I gotta go… I'm gonna work on the GSSC logo some more and maybe samurai showdown 5 special… LOL… lates… well that was a huge bust… LOL… I opened up the logo they want me to vectorize, and well… I can't use it… it's trash… freaken lady, I told her what I can and cannot do… I told her that I can't have a bunch of small lines or zig zags and that's what the new design looks like… sheesh… some people just don't listen to instructions or just don't pay attention… Oops… I hope she doesn't read this… LOL… I ♥ you kate… HAHAHAHAHA… I'm so bored here… I really should've come with a couple of coloring books and crayons… I think this might be the longest blog I have ever typed up… usually it's a copy and paste thing… but I'm so bored and went on a rampage up there…
Maybe I should be working on my book or a logo… but I just can't close the Microsoft word program… I just feel like I should be typing… nothing else to do… next time I'm bringing some head phones and some movies… LOL… I feel like I'm just sitting here getting fat… I'm not eating anything, but I'm just sitting on the floor with my legs crossed… I am so damn bored… I don't want to talk to people around me… they're all weird and look violent… the people next to me say the word "fuck" at least 3 times in a sentence… well I just spoke with my attorney, and I can go home…. LOL… but I have to wait for nena's attorney now… jeez… it's 12noon and they all left for lunch until 1.30pm… fucken ay… so I'm just here… kind of starvin' marvin… but I don't have to eat… I know nena does though… I feel bad for her… I don't' want to go get her something and pay another 5 bucks for parking… LOL…
I have successfully connected to their network… but it's being a nazi on websites… I can use AIM, google+, google maps and google search engine… and that's it… sigh… I wonder how I can get round the block… hmm…well, I think I'm really done this time… I'm tired of typing up stuff… well; I'll post this up later on when I get home if I don't forget…
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