taking the garbage to the curb baby...

sunday, may 26 2013

yeah, i know it's been a long ass time... and i know that i always say that i'm going to do it again and i don't... so what... sue me... lol... it's jsut that i always have shit to do... right now i don't go to forums and well, i ain't doing anything else... LOL... okay, this time for reals...

i want to start off saying that i wish a ton of love and luck to my boy james... everyone send good vibes his way... even though you don't know him... just say to youself... "good luck james, everything is going to get better soon" thank you...

first of all... i'm going to vent this shit that i have been holding back for like ever... lol... i hate faggots... fuck... i hate being gay... this fucken sucks ass... i can't find a decent guy... i can't find a man that calls himself to be a man and that turns out to be a man... i always meet guys that are masculine, but when it comes down to it, are huge fucken bitches... fuck... why do they have to pleague my life with drama...? why..?¿ do they just need to cause drama and conflict..? that's so fucken stupid... i don't know if i want to get into the details... i probably shouldn't because there might be a faggot that goes onto my blog just to see if i talk about this other dude... fuck... what a pathetic piece of human garbage...

you wanna know what the best part is...? that both of you guys will be out of my life for now on... i don't have to hear or see any of you... you guys can have eachother, and live with your black eyes and busted up faces... that's the only way you guys are ever going to be happy... go ahead and live in chaos... i'm over it... i have my kids, and my own bull shit to stress over... and if that little bitch wants to come cause trouble with me... fuck... look... i don't get violent to hurt something... i get violent to destroy... that's the only purpose to fight... to destroy... i'm not gonna stop until you stop moving... i've done it before, and i'm not afraid to do it again... i will do whatever it takes to defend myself and my family... i will not hold back or have any remorse for what will happen to you... i already have 666 and the bapheomet seal of satan permanently on my chest... what's another sin... i'm going to hell anyways...

another thing i want to talk about... i'm on this app on my phone to find other fags... i'm looking for guys to date, but everyone here just wants to suck my dick... do they realy think i'm going to let some random ass stranger put their teeth around my dick...? fuck you... lol.. anyways... hold on, let me look at my phone... i'm gonna talk shit about some dumb fuck's messages... fuck, he pissed me off... hold on... okay i finally found it... fuck, i wish i could cut and past it here... but i can't... so let me just set it up and quote shit on here... this black guy hits me up... i'm cool talking to black guys, but i'm not doing to fool around, date or anything else with them... not racist, it just doesn't work for me... same goes for asian or namaste indian guys... i don't know what to call them... LOL... anyways... the conversation started out like this...

him... "hey cutie pie" me "yo..." him... "man your bald head really turns me on, i bet it's baby smooth and i won't be able to get my hands off of you" (omg that's so super cheezy... what fag is going to fall for that shit..???? me "i have a ton of hair right now... and thx i guess... " him "no problem, how you doing today?" me "i'm cool, helping my kids with their homework..." (i always throw my kids in the conversation when i'm talking to some fool i don't want to talk to anymore... LOL...) him "have you ever been with a blk man before?" oh fuck... that question... so i said... "i've never been with a black man before, they aren't really my type..." then he said... "well, i guess this conversation is over since you're racist and very prejudice, i really don't like to people who they are better then other people in different races... what ever to" and that's it... i'm gonna start another paragraph...

what the fuck..??? seriously... what the fuck did i say that made me racist and prejudice...? i said black guys aren't my type... and that's it... fuck you for calling me a racist... i'm fucken mexican... you guys have a shitload of tv shows and networks dedicated to  your horrible lifestyle, and mexicans only got networks and shows that show in mexico... we don't get treated the same as you guys do in this country... i'm the minority here not you... how the fuck could i be reverse racist on your black ass...? how... fuck you're so damn stupid... so i said... "i'm not a racist or anything... it's just that i don't get turned on or anything by black or asian men... i'm a mexican that goes after white men... i hear them say it to me all the time, and it doesn't stop me from trying to be their friend... but some people just can't tolerate it..." then he throws this at me... "but arestill prejudice... so it nothing else need to says... i really don't like to talk to ignorant people like that... so this conversation is over" oh fuck... i need to start another paragraph for this one...

fuck you asshole for calling me ignorant... i gave you a legitimate explaination and reason, but obviously your stupid ass can't understand english... fuck... and he's calling me ignorant...? look at this fucken retard here... i take the word ignorant like a real insult... i am not ignorant... this is what i replied to him... "LOL... that's like you getting mad for me not being attracted to a woman... you see how stupid that sounds...? some of my straight friends like skinny chicks, other's like fat chicks... does that make them prejudice...? no... you're freken retarded... don't call me ignorant... i know english and i know how to comprehend it... you obviously don't... so fuck you and die you dumb fuck..." and i blocked him... that's right... i get the last word all the time... LOL... i'm such an asshole... but i'm not an ignorant prejudice racist gay... that's for sure... hahahaha... anyways...

don't go around getting all upset over what goes on in the internetz... it's not real... how can someone get all mad over a tiny comment that someone made on the internet... today i wrote "perhaps" on instagram, and all hell broke loose... did i mean it..? no... was i playing...? yes i was... but what happened happened... i don't care enought to fix it... i'm a man... you want to know how a man deals with bullshit...? a man does two things... he either fixes it, or if it's broken, throws it away... i'm not going to fix that drama... so i rather throw it in the garbage where it belongs... i'm done her... i'll try to blog at least every other day... if not every day... i'm talking to a lot of fags right now, so you know i'll need to vent some shit...

thank you guys for reading, i love you all...

recent update, and some gay rantings...

so I’m sitting on the third floor in children’s court… again… probably the twelfth time within twelve months… this has become the story of my life… I don’t say our life anymore since I have been coming by myself already four court dates… nena was either too tired, or in the hospital, and now… just not with us… so this battle is really all mine… I’m fine with that… I’m the one that has always battled it out… although, I haven’t really been fighting since nena passed and my life is slowly crumbling down over my head…  sound dramatic, but that’s exactly what’s been going on… I kinda don’t want to get into details… I actually wanted to talk about a conversation I had with this cute guy I went out with yesterday… but I guess you guys deserve a quick detailed update on my life and situations…

okay… so my sister nena passed away… um… my dad’s new wife is suffering and slowly dying of some sort of cancerous ulcer… that really sucks since my mother died slowly and painfully from cancer as well… so, I know he’s going thru some nasty shit… I feel bad for the old man… um… my quadriplegic sister got the boot from the house she was living at… that pissed me off more than bummed me out… drove me totally nuts… how the fuck can some super Christian ass bitch do that to a person that can’t move a single limb on her body… that’s so typical of them… stupid hypocrites… I hate them so much with a passion… I hope god does exist… just so those types of people get punished for their travesties… oh… I put my 11 year old pit bull Buddha to sleep… it wasn’t as hard as it sounds… to me, he was just a dog… my dog… a piece of property… I know that’s wrong, but I can’t help it… that, and I got two new dogs, pietro and bucky… then recently, the finance company found out that nena passed away… so they are repossessing my van… I only owe six grand on that sucker… I offered to pay it off cash, but they just don’t want to give me that option… they just want to keep all of the money I gave them, and resell the van for 23k again… fuck that… I’m giving it back to them totaled… take that assholes… and that’s about it… I’m at court… tada… LOL..

anyways… I went out with this guy last yesterday… I didn’t know if it was a date, but we went to dinner… was very stupid on my part, since I took him to frank and sons first… hahasldkfjalkdfja;lksdfjaskld;fj… so he saw me totally geek out over marvel vs Capcom 3 and saw me drop 50 bucks on comic books… I know it’s sounds bad, but I didn’t get my comic books last week… so it was two weeks of comics that I had to pick up… the failure… I’m not going to do that again… 50 bucks hurt me… 25 doesn’t… anyways… this guy’s super cool… I dunno if he’s down to boyfriend me… I think I’m way too masculine for him… that, and he says that he’s terrified of my chest tattoo… he’s one of those… but I’m cool with it… he’ll make a cool gay friend… hey, I don’t have any gay friends, so WTF’s up with that face…? Anywho… after I was dropping him off, I was saying how it sucks being gay… okay, I know, I know… there’s a lot of sucking for the gays… but srsly… it’s not easy being gay… especially since I was “straight” for so many years…it’s like… I’m the only gay that feels this way… it’s a trip… and let me explain it to you…

all through high school I had different girlfriends… I had to… I already stood out… so, I had to learn how to pick up on girls… I was good at it… not because I was so good looking… because I’m so damn ugly…but it was I wasn’t scared of rejection, and I knew what to say… I guess I had game… but I had to learn all that shit… I had to go through a ton of rejection… every time I went up to a girl it was hard, but I still did it… I even had to do it for my friends… all of my friends were fags when it came to picking up on girls… like, if it was the worst and hardest thing to do for them… so stupid… doesn’t make any sense to me… how the hell do you think you’re going to find someone walking around with your tail between your legs…? And girls can see that… everyone can see that… freaken idiots… anyways… it was an art I had to master, or else I would be exiled by my friends… it wasn’t that bad… although, high school girls are stupid… I had to put up with those dumb annoying bitches…

so now… say I’m at the home depot… I see some super sexy guy, and I really like him, and he’s all alone with no wedding ring on his hand… all I can do is just look at him, bite my tongue and walk away in disappointment… why you ask…? Well, I can’t just ask some random guy out… he’ll kick my ass… there’s a huge possibility that he is not gay… so, I’m pretty much assed out… all of those years learning how to introduce myself, learning how to read people’s body language and courage I had to earn to walk up to a random stranger for nothing… that shit sucks… I hate it… being gay sucks… the only way I can find someone is either online or at some kind of gay function like a bar, parade, party, or event… that totally fucks my odds up… I don’t go to any gay functions… I have no gay friends… and I don’t drink/party at all… I’m over that shit… why the hell do I need to go where there are a bunch of drunken fags and queens to find me a real man..?

shit’s crazy… although I have had a couple of mans… I had a shit ton of girlfriends before them… that’s not cool… some jacked up odds… I’m a gay man… I should have more gay man partners than biatches… right…? Sigh… oh well… I’m totally screwed…  crazy right…? but I’m tired of that… I’m a bitter old man already… i should be with a bitter old man too… well… right now I’m in no place to date... I’m a single parent, with no car now… I got to get my life straight… I just wish I had someone there to talk to and yell at when I need too… man, I really need to yell and punch someone…

well… it’s 12 noon… the court completely closed down and went to lunch… FUCK!... I’m starving, but I don’t want to pay 10 bucks for food in the cafeteria… I am freaken starving… oh, and another update… I fixed my keyboard… I got a completely new one… now my laptop looks so pimp with its silver keyboard... this one feels better too… the black plastic one got all scratched up and dented from the constant beatings/stabbings from my sharp fingernails… I just figured out why my nails are always sharp and pointy… it’s the angle they hit my keyboard… crazy how shit works sometimes…I guess it’s time I publish this and start catching up on my comic books… I haven’t read any in a couple of weeks… whatever happens today, I’ll blog up a quick update… okay, I’m done for now… please comment and tell your friends about my blog… that’s if you actually read it… if you didn’t, fuck you… and if you don’t… fuck you too…

stupid lying ass faggot... v2

So this jack ass is on this hook up site… his name is “MASKDLREQUIRED”…  check out his profile… LOL…

MASC GUY FOR OTHER MEN 28, 5'10", 207lb, 34w, Athletic, Black Hair, Shaved Body, Latino, Looking for 1-on-1 Sex, 3some/ Group Sex.

NO PIX HERE, TO DL SORRY FOR GOOD REASON,, IF UR DOWN WITH A MASC GOOD LOOKIN DUDE HIT IT UP,, NOT INTO FEMS OR GUYS THAT ACT RIDICULOUS, ONLY GOOD LOOKIN MEN LATIN OR WHITE,, NO ASIANS, BLACK, JUST PREFERENCE, RESPECT IT
NO PIX HERE, TO DL SORRY FOR GOOD REASON,, IF UR DOWN WITH A MASC GOOD LOOKIN DUDE HIT IT UP,, NOT INTO FEMS OR GUYS THAT ACT RIDICULOUS, ONLY GOOD LOOKIN MEN LATIN OR WHITE,, NO ASIANS, BLACK, JUST PREFERENCE, RESPECT IT

First of all… fuck you… you don’t have a picture up and aren’t gonna put one up…? Who the hell do you think you are…? Srsly…? Are you that much of a wuss that you don’t want some gay guy to know what you look like…? Wtf… do gay guys really go after this bullshit…? What guy is going to want to hook up or even talk to someone that …? That’s so stupid… fucken creep… anyways… I sent him a message… LOL… I really wanted to know his explanation or thought process on this retarded shaded ass profile… I asked him…

but you can have a pic in private... that way you control who sees you... no one is going to want to hook up with a complete stranger... at least a pic will make them want to hook up...

okay… I don’t think I told him anything to offend him… right…? I just said that he could have a picture in private and lock it from the public eyes… and I told him that no one in their right mind would want to fuck with a guy that doesn’t want to show a picture at all… unless they are weird dumb creepy fucks like him… damn sicko… who the hell does he think he is..? LOL… anyways… this is what he told me…

I've been hooking up bro with out pix.. math u should hide urs Cus looks like u need action but can't get any cuz of ur looks

Hahahaha… that shit was hilarious… I know he hasn’t been hooking up with no pics because his profile is 2 days old… unless you’re finding some nasty ass fucks that are aid’s infected, then I’ll believe you… anyways… this fucker is straight out trying to insult me… that’s funny… I don’t know if I had it coming… but to be honest, it was shocking to me… I was like… WTF…? Srsly…? Are they talking shit to they…? Whatever… this is what I pm’d him back…

hahaha... i didn't hit you up to hate, i thought i was giving advice... if that's the kind of person you really are, then that's just sad... it all makes sense... 
and if you want to insult someone, learn how to spell... why should i "math" anything...? LOL... i trip out when i hook up with men with wedding rings that say they're straight but love sucking dick... i know you're one of them... just a scared cock sucking fag with a horrible personality... i hope you don't have kids...

hahaha… I know that shit hurt his feelings… it would hurt my feelings… but fuck that guy… he deserves it… what a total jack ass… okay, I’m gonna switch it up now…

what the fuck is really going on with the world…? Was that how it was back in the day… all kinds of married men looking for an anonymous dick to sit on…? Sick mother fuckers… why marry your wife and have kids if you’re all about the shaft…? Does that make sense to anyone…? It doesn’t make sense to me… it’s stupid… why are you guys stupid now…? Why can’t you just accept the fact that you were born gay…? Who cares what your friends and family think for a day or two… they’ll get over it… it’s easy and not a big deal… why do you have to ruin lives living in a lie..? your poor wife… your poor kids… man… imagine they found out that mom left dad because he’s a cock sucking bottom aids infected whore…

okay… I’m not going to be all hypocrite and say I’ve never fucked a straight man… I have… and I have always asked them… “how does this make you feel…?” LOL… some guys get all offended and mad… I don’t give a fuck… I tell them the truth… how can they sit there tell me that they’re straight when they’re tonsil deep on my dick…? Not trying to sound graphic, but it’s true… that’s not being straight… straight guys don’t chow on man’s meat… that’s gay… and lying about it… that’s faggotry right there… I met one man in the past that was honest about it… I asked if he was married and he said yes… with kids… his family thinks he’s working overtime… then he started crying… “my family loves me, worships the ground I walk on, and here I am sucking dick like a fag” I wanted to crack up… but I guess it was sad…

wait… that shit is not sad… fuck that guy… he’s a dick… lying to his family and denying it… be a man mother fucker… and stop sucking dick… if you want to be with a man, come out of the closet, leave your wife and pay for your kids therapy… I guess the moral of my story is if you’re gay… don’t get married like a straight man… HAHAHHAA… nothing’s wrong with being gay… just don’t live a lie… btw… 95% of so called “bisexuals” are not bisexuals… they’re perverted ass nymphomaniacs… like me… LOL…